Hello all! Long time ago, I wrote this poem and so now I feel the need to share it with all of you. After listening to what a lot of people were going thru, I felt compelled to put this piece together. So just in case you’re wondering, this poem is NOT about me. 🙂 Hope you enjoy it.
As I sit here
Thinking about what could’ve been
Thinking about what should’ve been
I get pissed.
Start having fits
‘Cause I’m sick of this sh*t.
Rent is past due
I’m on food stamps
And my man is sleeping with several tramps.
And he thinks that I don’t know.
Car got repossessed
My finances are a mess
I’ve had it up to here
But God said, “Don’t fear.”
And although I know He’s near
It seems like the harder I try
The harder I cry.
Sick of people saying, “The Lord works in mysterious ways.”
Well, I’m pleading for God to work TODAY.
I know that you can’t rush God
And that He works in His own time
But I need Him to ease the pressure
Before I lose my damn mind.
Interview after interview, doors slammed in my face
‘Cause employers forgot how it was to be in my place.
I’m getting tired of your mother’s mouth
Putting up with all of her disrespect
I knew she was crazy and nosy as hell
But this wasn’t what I’d expect.
Sometimes I feel like getting in my car
Turning off my cell phone and driving away
But the little faith that I’m holding on to
Gives me the strength to make it another day.
And like a dumb ass, I kept taking you back
Knowing damn well that you didn’t deserve me.
But this morning, I woke up with light shining thru my window
And I feel the urge to set you free.
Please don’t beg for forgiveness as I pack your sh*t
Don’t say how much you love me.
Because your words are falling on deaf ears
You’re blocking my vision and I want to see.
So as I closed the door in your face
I’m ready to clean out my whole place
I’m gonna fill this place with new beginnings
Because now I know that my life has meaning.
I’m gonna pursue my dreams
And live my life
And I thank God for visiting me today
And showing me the light.
Copyright © 2013 by Sonica Jackson